Posts Tagged ‘Arts’

 

“Love’s Turmoil” is my journey over the past couple of months…I’ve been feeling suffocated by life, by the stresses of being a mom, by the responsibilities of teaching 17 students, by not having enough time for me and for my music!  I cut myself off from everyone, I joined an amazing yoga studio and started soul searching…”What do I really want? When do I feel most balanced and happy?”

And of course the answer is the same as it’s always been, spending more time with my children and writing and performing my songs!  I thought by teaching more it would give me more money so as I could get to the studio and start recording an album and all it did was leave me with no time to accomplish what I truly wanted.  It took awhile, but I finally made a decision to cut out over half of my students, and wow, did I feel free again!  I was able to finish my song and record it and start relaxing and just enjoying life again!

 

“It is only when we silent the blaring sounds of our daily existence that we can finally hear the whispers of truth that life reveals to us, as it stands knocking on the doorsteps of our hearts.”-K.T.Jong

 

 

 

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I thought I would share this video today, it’s a trailer to a documentary film about our crazy music industry and what has happened, and what is happening…

This is why I struggle everyday trying to figure out how I can make a living with my music. I have all these songs, I even have some recording equipment, but in order for me to step to that next level and record an album. I need a music producer! Some would disagree, but for me I know what I want my finished songs to sound like. There are layers in my head, and I do not have the technical skills or the equipment to make these come to life without some help. Unfortunately here’s reality…It costs about $1500 to record one song in the studio, and with the music industry allowing people to download that song for free or for a donation, how does that pay for the cost of an album?…

It is not easy being a musician, having a passion and wanting to share it!

This doesn’t stop me from writing music or playing the piano, actually I can’t stop, it is the only time when I feel completely free of everything in this stressful life! I have to play it is my sanity and my sanctuary!!

Ok, here it is, something simple that I’ve been scared to post…
This is a piece that I wrote a few weeks ago, I wrote it in 20 minutes. I love it! But of course the same reasons I struggle with when I play on stage started creeping in…

“Is this good enough?…” “Is this too simple?…” “Well anybody like it?…”

Guess what? Today I decided I didn’t care!!!
I love it!! And I’m going to post it and I hope it reaches others who love it as well!

I’m making a change to my blog as well, I’m going to get more honest with my entries in hopes that it helps me overcome more of my fears and maybe it well help someone else who struggles with Stage Fright…

Until my next post…

I wrote this on my keyboard last year, I just rewrote it for the piano…